livin without livin without livin withoutyou

1. baby

It is hot raw tuna in here,

Thick with milky glue

And me

I am what are these meaty stubs at all the ends

They are and they are and they are and they are my flesh

And I seem to inhabit it all comes into me through silky snaking pulses

And these gelatinous receptions are all dark and thick pink and fog

And I feel

And I fill with the sound

Of bethum bdm bethum bdm bethum bdm

Bouncing and something soft sounds

Rhythm of two separate beats,

Mine and the one cradling me with its undulating goo

Stillness is not so easy

Bobbing here like an apple…waiting

Waiting

 

1. Corpse

It is cool dark chocolate dung roast in here,

Thick with rainbows of manure

And me,

Flesh fell in sticky clumps from my bones

And stuck to the earth instead.

My nose grew a hole.

And I fill with the sound

Of shhhhhhh and pomp pomp pomp pomp

Foot falls and dried leaves in the wind

And the changing seasons

Throb like a heart beat

Season bthm season bdm season bthm

The heat tore my body from me,

The cool cemented it’s mummified skin,

The drip of snow-water sunk and froze and cracked and disintegrated

The remaining sludge that was once body.

And there is a daisy seed

In my nose hole

And its roots fill my mouth cavity

Like a delicate spittle.

 

3.Mother

I waited for you for months

It was like they say about boiling water,

It never boils until you stop watching.

I am popping right now. I got so ripe

I was like a big globe swilling thousands of tsunamis,

You, my baby, disaster’s best creation,

What should I name you?

 

4.Grave

They dug me eight by eight

And I was a hole

For you to fill

 

Within me, cradled,

I suck the puss

Of your living

And the chemical grass fertilizer

Seeps into the place

Where your heart sinks into infinite rot

 

 

 

my roommate Cam...